she gets so sick of crying…

Let’s get something straight here.

IT IS OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY.

Although I have only had this blog up for a few weeks, I have been advised (multiple times) to take it down. I have been told that anxiety and depression should be dealt with privately…

But guess what? I am tired of feeling ashamed.

That narrow-minded way of thinking is what got me here today. Not having a safe place to open up or ask for help is what made my condition worse. All these years I have felt like an animal trapped in a cage and I finally have the courage to escape.

After realizing that some of the people who mean the most to me do not support this method of coping, I thought about deleting all of these posts and never writing again. I sat in my living room while my husband slept and I cried. Tears of disappointment and anger streamed down my face as I tried to figure out what to do with myself.

I found an old journal from one of my college English classes and frantically flipped through it to find an empty page. As I was doing that, I found tons of crinkled, tear-stained pages… that is when I pulled myself together and told myself I would never go back to that place.

I do not ever want to feel that alone again. I do not want to resort to pouring my heart out in a tiny book and crying myself to sleep.

I want to help others stay away from that dark place. I want people to realize that they are not alone…. there are a ton of other people who feel the same way but do not have the support or encouragement they need to reach out and ask for help.

Although I do not have all the support I had hoped I’d have, I am thankful for those of you who have lifted my spirits and kept me going here.

To those of you who are still hiding in the shadows, always remember this:
“We all have a story to tell, whether we whisper or yell.” – HeIsWe

Get out there and write your story.
XO – Tink

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One thought on “she gets so sick of crying…

  1. I’m sorry people feel like they need to always respond to your posts and they feel like the need to tell you what to do. What I have learned in life is you do what you want to do especially if you feel like it is making you feel better. Like you I go through the same feelings of anxiety and depression and honestly your posts have allowed me the courage to understand that being not okay really is okay. We are human and we have emotions. We are not robots. Thank you for your posts and keep on writing girl.

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