Let’s get something straight here.
IT IS OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY.
Although I have only had this blog up for a few weeks, I have been advised (multiple times) to take it down. I have been told that anxiety and depression should be dealt with privately…
But guess what? I am tired of feeling ashamed.
That narrow-minded way of thinking is what got me here today. Not having a safe place to open up or ask for help is what made my condition worse. All these years I have felt like an animal trapped in a cage and I finally have the courage to escape.
After realizing that some of the people who mean the most to me do not support this method of coping, I thought about deleting all of these posts and never writing again. I sat in my living room while my husband slept and I cried. Tears of disappointment and anger streamed down my face as I tried to figure out what to do with myself.
I found an old journal from one of my college English classes and frantically flipped through it to find an empty page. As I was doing that, I found tons of crinkled, tear-stained pages… that is when I pulled myself together and told myself I would never go back to that place.
I do not ever want to feel that alone again. I do not want to resort to pouring my heart out in a tiny book and crying myself to sleep.
I want to help others stay away from that dark place. I want people to realize that they are not alone…. there are a ton of other people who feel the same way but do not have the support or encouragement they need to reach out and ask for help.
Although I do not have all the support I had hoped I’d have, I am thankful for those of you who have lifted my spirits and kept me going here.
To those of you who are still hiding in the shadows, always remember this:
“We all have a story to tell, whether we whisper or yell.” – HeIsWe
Get out there and write your story.
XO – Tink